The timing of things can be very interesting at times. There is a job that I have dreamed about having since I was in middle school about the time I got serious about playing the violin. Yesterday the local musician’s union newsletter arrived announcing a position at that very symphony.
I’ve been mulling it over in my brain for over 24 hours now. Despite the problems that the group has been having I can’t help but wonder at the timing. My studio is so small, and other frustrations with the school make me feel that it’s time to move on from where I teach now. I’ve been doing a bunch of auditions, so I’m use to doing the necessary work at a high level. I’ve been working on getting more jobs with camber groups to play more in front of people, and work on handling any nerves I get for being responsible for my own music. Of course I don’t know if they would even give me a chance to audition, but as one friend said Sunday morning I’ll never know unless I give it a chance.
So, now I have to figure out if I’m brave enough, and strong enough to give myself a chance. I know I’ve come a long way. I can hear the improvement, and I’m understanding my technique more and more over the past couple of months.