I decided today that I need to practice what I teach. All of my students have goals whether they realize it or not. It might be to learn a piece or master a skill, but it’s still a goal. I like giving them small easy goals. Ones I know they can reach, and attain easily. So why don’t I do this for myself? No wonder I keep emotionally reacting to everything lately. Disappointing auditions, and not being picked for a new teaching job have been dragging me down this week. So, I want to turn it all around.
- My marathon training is going really awesome. I can totally see doing a 4 hour marathon. I want to do a 4 hour marathon. Eye on the prize!
- Audition #3 is in November. I want to make it to the 2nd round at the very least. This week I want to get all of the excerpts under my fingers, and start getting the details down.
- I’ve started journaling after each student’s lesson. I don’t like that my studio has shrunk to 6 students. If I can’t get anyone to observe me then I want to keep a log of what’s happening in each lesson so that I can go back and see what’s happening. Is the student making progress? Do I need to copy something for them? Do I need to make an adjustment?
- quiet time everyday. I need to stop all of the crazy running around I do, and take a few minutes to focus to remind myself what’s really important.
- clean. This seriously needs to happen or I’m going to go nuts. The laundry must get folded since it can’t do it itself.
I’m hoping this will help me step back, and see things better. Where do I want to go? Am I doing what I need to get there? I want to focus things so that things are more clear. No more emotional reacting!
So, I missed a few post that I normally do. Sorry about that. Things have been kind of crazy, and I’ve been a little down the past couple of days. So, quick catch up:
I played a pretty decent audition. My solo sounded great! The new violin projected so nicely in the hall I was auditioning in. It really filled the space. The first excerpt was great, and one of my favorites. The second excerpt was the scherzo from Medlesshon’s Midsummer Night’s Dream Overture. I got a bit nervous, but instead of imploding with super bouncey spiccatto I kept it together. I was totally bummed when they announced they were done listening to me. I really got the sense that they weren’t interested in hearing me. And then I heard later that not a single professional was offered a contract! Even the principle 2nd violin position went to a college student from the local university. I smell a plan to have only college kids in that orchestra. Why they advertised in the union newsletter is beyond me, but at least I got an audition experience to build off of for the next one.
Last week was another base building week. Nothing really big happened other than kick rear over 16 miles on a super hilly route! So far everything is going great, and I’m going to kill my marathon PR in December. Weekly totals: 35 miles of running and 17 miles of biking. This week is a recovery week!
1. Running – It’s back to building, and this time Jeff has added some more challenging runs. It’s 14 weeks till race day. Why does that sound really close already?
2. Tuesday I start the process of getting ready for braces again. Because everyone wants to get spacers four days before they turn 34. I haven’t been able to get dental floss between two of my back teeth for a week. I’m not so excited about this.
3. Auditions – I have two of them this week. I just need my spiccato to get on board, and I should be just fine. It’s nice having only 5 excerpts to get ready.
I’m a little overwhelmed, and a little nervous about this week, but I’m just going to take it a day at a time, and keeping checking things off of the to-do list.